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This is another one from the past;
July 8, 2012 at 2:58pm ·
Just before I die these are the words I have to say;
To my Family;
I giggle a whole lot when I think if you all I wonder what you all will say when you hear the news of my death perhaps some of you will Bag a Grammy award because of the lead role you will unconsciously play in crying me a river as if that will wake me up.
I also wonder who you will call first to tell of my Demise how pitiable. Seriously will you wait to be asked before you tell the entire world that I no longer belong here with the living?
I am thinking of something and that is the word you will say first when you hear am gone what will say or scream? tell me my siblings.
Now my friends come to my mind especially those that we were in a FRIENDship where I alone was the friend when you thought me the enemy .Seriously you must be the first to rejoice at least an enemy has been brought down come to think of it ,no voice, no sight, no recognition isn’t that what you all wanted ?
To those who always hated me from afar how joyous you shall be to hear the news. One thing bothers me did any of you bother to know the “me” you hated so much…..probably you hated me for a reason but how can that be my fault when with such a small place in the world and no opportunity for a second chance at life we all have to struggle to get to the top?
To those I thought Loved me during my existence how much shame you must be filled with. To take that which you have refused to give would not matter as much as taking and being deceptive with that which you have refused to give. I don’t approve of your schemes but you must be better than me to have pulled this show for months ,some for years ,some half my life ,and some my entire life oh how I wish you same fate as that which has befallen me in your hands. To think you will go scot free hurts me, yes!! even the dead feel pain. I wish I knew all this when I still had the power to speak and be heard ;the havoc I would have committed is better left imagined, the misery I would have brought you lives could be one reason am defenceless, with this much evidence and justification to make I would have made you weep and water plants to breath anew.
You who I have gave my heart to and you served me with the same fate as “Romeo” just before he met “Juliet” I wish once again to let the entire world into one secret of ours at least some one might take up my cause and see to it that you LOVE me even now that am gone as if that will bring me back but yet I MUST say it;
“Every day I see you my flesh is set on fire.
I can’t help but imagine being in your Arms.
29 calls placed to you and am feeling embarrassed.
The fear of losing you to the cruel hands of death has been a reason for me to let this feeling take over.
I wish kissing were our way of greeting then I will enclose your lips in a French kiss.
With such fierceness I will clasp your lips but with tenderness take in all that you give.
I wish I could show you how much you occur in my thoughts without being a Desperado.
Truth is you are not that into me if you are saying nothing.
When you touch my hands I can’t help but shiver.
I lean on your shoulder thinking you will hear my heartbeat for you.
Am lost in your eyes; Today my writings have changed because of you.
The attraction I feel for you is ripping my sin evacuated heart and threatening to make me fall.
As difficult as it is I will resist you to my last breath.”
#girlfromthesouth
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